Since I didnt really DO anything special for your birthday this year, I thought I’d write you letter. And I’m feeling particularly sappy, so I get to tell you how much I love you a million times and you can’t do shit about it.
You’re special. I’ve never really had a lot of people I feel comfortable talking to. So every time I was low or upset, I usually resorted to ignoring most of my problems instead of figuring out where I went wrong and attempting to make things better. But we met and became friends. And for some reason, I thought you could be the person I could confide in. After being friends for over a decade, sharing dreams, stories and fantasies, my trust in you has only grown beyond light years. You’ve made me realize the importance of having friends. You’ve helped me value my relationships. So much of who I am and how I think is thanks to you. I may not have been the person you wanted to be friends with. I may not have been what you wanted me to be. I may not have been there to share the best moments of your life, or the worse. But I promise to do the best I can. You’re one of the pillars of my strength. And I promise to always try to be one of yours.
Sometimes I wonder how you know me so well. I’ve always had a handicap of expressing my feelings verbally. But you know things even before I tell you. You know when I am upset. You also know when I just need someone to sit with me to share the silence if I don’t want to talk. Or when I’m just being stubborn. Somehow, you know. But you never give me the luxury of being in denial or get fed lies. It is a type of quality that makes you irreplaceable. I promise to tell you things. Express my love and fears. I’ve been working at it for a while now. I love you. There’re not a lot of people I’d take a bullet for. I don’t think I tell you enough.
Out of all the words to describe you, I think the word that is most accurate is kind. And no wonder being friends with you all these years has made me someone I’m proud to be. You’re so many more adjectives (generous, helpful and caring), but your kindness is unrelenting and I’m certain it will bring you all the awesomness in the world that you deserve. Words are insufficient, but you need to know how awesomely awesome you are, so they’re going to have to do for now, anyway. I promise to always be here, somewhere in the background to remind you every day, so you never doubt it.
You’re smart and intelligent. And no matter how lost you feel, I know for a fact that wherever you find yourself, will be the right place. It breaks my heart to think of you struggling, because I know sometimes you do. I know it feels like the world is being a jerk to you sometimes, when people are mean, or when life is changing and everything is just way too overwhelming, but I know you can endure it. You’re tough. Even if you’re exhausted or busy or mad, I know you make time for the people you love. And we have known each other for a long time. Maybe that’s how I know you’ll be able to deal with difficult and annoying people easily. I promise never to leave you alone, not because I am incredibly creepy or clingy, but because I am indebted to you for life.
You care. Everyone else bails. To be honest, I expect them to. Times get rough and I’m not fun to be around when that happens. People don’t like being around when in times like these. It’s a burden. But you stay. You stay even when things look bleak. You let me talk and cry and never make me feel guilty for needing you. You’re selfless and loving. And it surprises me because I’ve never known caring like this. You’re inspiring. You deserve so much more than this little letter, but since I don’t know how I could ever repay you, this is an attempt to do just that. I promise to return the favor even if it takes a lifetime, because I’m not going anywhere.
There are times when I do not like you too much, because sometimes I think you care a lot and I don’t deserve it. As pathetic as this may sound, I strive to be a better person because of people like you in my life.
So, I promise. You have given me an important place in your life, and I promise to always value it.
You completed another year of your sheer awesome existence in this world today. No matter how far we’ve come, how busy we’ve become or how much we’ve matured, nothing can change the care and the affection that I have for you. I am thankful I met you. Because life without you would’ve sucked.
Happy Birthday Sweetheart. I hope your day is as beautiful as you are. I ♥ you! oxox